the portrait illustrated the quote of the affected person: »for me, it’s just total dissociation. it’s like there’s no boundary between you and the world anymore. you’re completely mentally dissociated and you don’t have control over your own thoughts and emotions anymore. you’re just at the mercy of whatever feelings you have. you’re somehow totally close to yourself, but at the same time totally far away from yourself because you can’t reflect what’s coming. i would describe it as the worst loss of control i’ve ever experienced in my life.«